wow, im getting the hang of this updating thing now....

so i can't say that its been long time since i have updated, but what i can say is that i got into The Art Institute of pittsburgh, this i am so excited about but....Grant is going into the navy for 4 years...when he told me that the other day i didnt no what to think, i just started balling. i want him to do what s best for him, i just know that im going to miss him so freeking much, i have never been so emotionally attached to anybody like i am with him, and tonight i was afride to let him go. I want him and i to be together forever. but i only think its gonna be harder if both of us go away.hes afride that im gonna find some college guy that makes good money and that will treat me right .. but let me tell you guys something sure grant and i have our bad days, but i have never been with someone that has reated me this well. money for me is not an issue nor will it ever be, i think love is far more important (he begs to differ). i dont understand everything.

The Art Institute of pittsburgh is a really good oppertunity for me, the classes i will be taking are amazing..and i get so excited thinking about it. but the price is kinda pricy....all i know it i need to make my mind up quick....and im scared  may make the wrong decision.

i just got a root canal done today, and i look like alvin and the chipmunks.....grant was making fun of me all night....i cant help i lookcute.

Grant- Babe i love you so much. its so hard to put any amount of word to it, i hope the navy is somethign u really wantto do, and i wish you all the luck with it, i want you to know that when you come home ill be right here waiting for you no matter what.....you are my everything and i could not live without you again......just remmber ashley ruterford dosnt sound that bad ;)

I wish love didnt have to hurt so bad ........

so now that i am a reck and really confused i will go......